Dear
Dreamer,
When
I woke up this morning, I realized I was not dreaming. My heart is filled
with joy and my spirit filled with happiness and laughter. To complete the hard
work that is required to become a doctor was very challenging. However, it
pales in comparison to my life experiences.
Go
to school, get good grades, pass, then your promoted. On the other hand,
go to school, get bad grades, fail, then you will have to do the class all over
again. However, life is a little bit different. In life, you live, make good
decisions, reap the benefits. On the other hand, when you make bad decisions in
life, the consequences may last a lifetime. There are no retakes or make ups
once a bad decision is made. However, it is never too late to become conscious
of who you really are and make choices that will put you on a healthier path.
The
benefits of good decisions are available for anyone to reap. This is my life
story and how I chose to make good life decisions and create a legacy that will
go on for many generations to come. It is never too late to implement good
decision making, change, and grow spiritually!
Many
Blessing
Dr.
Monique Walker
I
find myself searching for someone that will never be found. I am looking
for someone who is ambitious, happy, stable, loving, kind, a believer and
follower of God. Someone to compliment my rollercoaster life.
Someone to break bread with. You know, a ride or die. Someone with
focus and goals. This person has to fit MY ideal image in all of these
areas. This person has to understand all of the intricacies that
make me who I am.
I
have searched from coast to coast, looking for my ideal person. While on
the road I found an abuser, a recluse, and an imposter. While it is easy
to give these individuals a title and be judgmental of who they are, the truth
is the person with the real issues is me. The truth is by searching I am
going outside of myself to find something that I have made up in my mind to be
ideal. On that note, I am attracting just the opposite of what I am
looking for. Ambitious becomes lazy, happy becomes sad, stable becomes
chaotic, loving becomes jealousy, kind becomes selfish, and believer becomes
nonbeliever. How on earth can this person compliment my rollercoaster
life much less break bread with me? Forget about ride or die that becomes
run for your life girl. That is just what I have been doing, running for
my life.
I am
now tired of searching, feeling disappointed, disconnected, and running for my
life. I am now forced to face my demons head on. What I have found
is my truth. The truth is:
- People are not projects that require repair or even someone’s
opinion of who they are.
- Either you accept someone for who they are or leave them alone.
- Each person has their own self work to do. Be respectful of their
process.
With
that said, my search is over. As I sit here alone with my ideal ideas, I
discovered that my ideal person was never lost. Therefore, my searching
was pointless. As a matter of fact, I have had that person all
along. I have been running and searching everywhere for something that
was in plain sight. She is me and I am her, a woman who is willing to
stand in her truth, submitting to personal growth, and spiritual
maturity. I challenge you to stand in your truth.
