Unsilent

I have spent the last 4 years of my life running and hiding from a very dark past

Hoping that my past would just disappear and I would be free at last

Free to be me no longer feeling guilt, anger, or shame   

Free to live a normal life, no longer dwelling in self-blame

Self-hate, distorted self-image, low self-esteem

Absent self-worth, no time to pursue my dreams

Because dreaming is a crime when you live in chaos

My thoughts were too foggy to even get them across

Trying to hold it together when out with others

Putting on the façade of being an unbothered mother

Truth be told, I was burdened by holding this ugly secret

A secret that damages whoever chooses to keep it

It is a secret called domestic violence

It is that dirty shameful secret that keeps victims silent

Today is the day that I choose to share my pain

No longer weighed down by guilt, anger, and shame

By the way, that secret is no longer safe with me 

Because God has given me confirmation that I am free

Free to be me, pursue my dreams, no more secrets

Free to lead a fruitful life without regrets

The moral of the story is no matter what you’re going through

Rely on God to turn all your experiences to good use